I seriously do not know what is wrong with me. I am generally pretty happy but lately I have been having these sporadic bouts of extreme sadness. At first I thought it was because I was having a hard time adjusting to "married life" (T and I living together, sharing household duties, commuting to work & going to school) but I have gotten used to that and it's been pretty good. But I still have days where I am sad that I am alone and sad when I am with people. I have days where I dread going to work, and dread going home. I have days where I cry myself to sleep and wake up the next morning feeling the same as the night before.
I don't know what it is. I am starting to think I am depressed but I am hesitant to believe that because my sister has dealt with depression and her episodes were much more manic and extreme than mine (she is doing much better now, she is amazing and I am in awe of all her strength given the cards she was dealt).
Part of me also thinks with my recent bouts of sadness is because of my revolving door of birth control pills (and by revolving door I mean 3 different contraceptives, 2 different pills and the patch). Maybe because I have been switching everything around lately my hormones are all out of wack.
Whatever it is I am hoping to get an answer. If it doesn't subside I think I'll talk to my doctor soon.