I have been debating on whether to write this post or not, so I am going to write it, and if by the end I feel like not sharing it, I'm going to delete it. Nothing really bad is going on, I am just getting a tad impatient. Teedle and I have been talking about marriage for a LONG time now. We've talked about getting married before he deployed, right when he got back, and a year from now (for a little back story, TJ's best friend in the whole entire world is on a Mission and has one more year left. They would never get married without each other so when we were thinking about getting married before/after deployment it would have been a court wedding, followed by a "real wedding" when his best friend returns in May 2011). Now it is set, were getting married in a year (right when his best friend gets back).
Now you may be asking, so what's the problem here? The problem is, the lack of something silver and shiny on my left hand. STOP! Before you think I'm being completely ridiculous here, don't worry, I think I am being ridiculous too! I think what is really bugging me about this situation is that I am completely out of control. When I want something I make it happen, but this is not exactly that type of situation. Not to mention I HATE surprises. The whole idea of being out of the loop drives me nuts! I know he is going to "officially" propose, he has told me he is going to "officially" propose, we even went and looked at rings! I just don't like the fact that I have to wait. I feel like I need to find one of my books from childhood entitled Patience is a Virtue and read it over and over. I need to stop being so impatient!
Okay, my rant/venting session is over.